Today is the one year anniversary of the death of a very clo..
Added 2021-01-14 17:30:52 +0000 UTCToday is the one year anniversary of the death of a very close friend of mine. I am feeling rather broken, remembering how good of a good human was taken, making more room for the overabundance of assholes who seem immortal. There is some guilt. Could have I aided in changing the outcome of my poor, mentally ill friends fate? (Doubtful. Never send the mentally ill to help the mentally ill, that's how we multiply, like asexual plants budding smaller versions of themselves, only to have them grow into mentallyill².) My upset conflicts with my schedule so, against my better wishes, I do not think I will be able to make any new content today. Also, I may not be very active/responsive to comments/DMs until tomorrow. It makes me nervous. Having a set schedule is very important to how I function, but I do not make content that feels unnatural. You deserve me at my most fun self, my weird self, my ~sexy~ self, not a depressed mess with a fake grin. Thank you for your continued support and understanding. It means so, so much to me. Truly. Without you, I would be stressed beyond belief. Your subscriptions and tips are what pays my bills, and those who rebill ease my mind even more, knowing that their support is to continue. Thank you so much. This year I'll be 5yrs clean and sober, a milestone my friend was never able to reach. With the stress relief you help provide, I'll be able to smile as I celebrate year five, I hope you'll all still be here to enjoy that day with me. I'll stop being sappy now. I hope you have a pleasant day. 🖤
